One of the most important things I did to help get me to this point in starting Redbud Wren Co. was to eliminate distractions. About a year ago, I was at a place where I felt absolutely lost. I had so many ideas and I didn’t know where any of it fit. Do I pursue all of this? Do I pursue none of it? I was also struggling with the ugly monster of comparison. Comparing my life with those I saw on social media, with my friends, and with people I saw at church or other places. I felt like everyone else knew their purpose. I felt like everyone else was doing amazing things; public speaking, starting businesses, pursuing dreams, handling motherhood with grace, eating right, being beautiful social butterflies, and so many other things I was desperately aspiring to but not even getting close.
I knew I had to make a change. I felt like I had completely lost myself. I was finding myself thinking way too many negative thoughts, having these small bouts of depression, and losing my temper. I remember praying and just knowing I needed to get back to the basics of who I was with Jesus. I had to eliminate all the distractions and stop comparing my book with everyone else’s, but get back to the story God was writing for me. I got rid of all social media, an extreme, but truly a life changing experience for me. I stopped trying to be a part of everything in an effort to try to find my place. I leaned into my marriage, my children, and most importantly my relationship with God.
I realized in the process of all this, I had been coasting on fumes. Barely making any time to cultivate my relationship with God, if any. I was counting on my physical presence in church, and a few life giving relationships to sustain me. But merely being present at church, talking to friends, or even just listening to worship music doesn’t make a relationship with God. Getting in his word, tuning your ear to his voice, and talking to him is what makes a relationship. Its personal. It’s not something any outside source can do for you. It took eliminating all the distractions in my life to realize that I was missing the most important piece.
My relationship with God grew and it was beautiful. It is beautiful. I want to always be growing in that relationship. You can never get too close to him. He is always drawing you closer as you draw closer to him. This process wasn’t overnight. In fact, it took way longer than I wanted it to. (That sounds about right, huh?) But it was in this process that he brought so much clarity to my heart and mind about my purpose. For me it happened slowly over time, then culminated in a single moment. The deeper I dove with the Father, the more clarity he brought to my heart, about who I was as a mother, a wife, a friend, and also for this business.
Then, on April 4th, 2019 at a prophetic/worship night at my church, I got a word that changed my trajectory. God in his beautiful goodness, put most of the pieces together for me that night. Showed me a big picture, one that honestly scared me a little, and then immediately spoke to those fears too. To say I was excited would be an understatement. I was truly blown away. In that moment, I knew I was seen and known by the creator of the universe. And not only that, but he had an amazing plan for me. I was all in. After that encounter, I starting writing everything down. I would wake up in the middle of the night knowing God had just shown me something in my dreams. I dove even deeper in my seeking of the Father’s heart. I had just got a glimpse of it for me and I didn’t want to stop there. I felt like I had found peace.
Things started unfolding pretty quickly after that. God showed me so much for Redbud Wren Co. that I have safely tucked in my notebook. He showed me the team he had chosen as well, and in just a few short months after that encounter we had our first meeting! I would be lying if I said it wasn’t tempting to let things slide in my relationship with him now that I am busier than ever. But I’ve known from the very beginning that I can’t do this in my own might or ability. That this business, my family, my marriage is all from God. And it is from the closeness that I have with him that all these things flow. It is a battle to not let these things become distractions. It can so easily be done if I take my eyes off the source. I LOVE this business idea and everything he has entrusted to me, and I am determined to run this race well. To trust God to see me through and supply every need.
So if you are in a similar place as I was a year ago, then I want to challenge you to eliminate distractions. Be honest when you take stock of what you have going on around you. Your distractions may look different than mine. And know that distractions sometimes don’t seem like bad things, but if they are taking you away from the true source, then they aren’t worth your time. You can’t hear his voice if you are distracted by the noise. So turn down the volume on everything vying for your attention, and get in tune with the Father. He will absolutely bring all the clarity you need.